Anything Goes

christmas season

2004-12-21T20:44:00.000-08:00

near na christmas... am i happy?? yah... VERY. ;) i'm glad cause i know that i won't be sending sad messages to others. grabe, ang tagal ko talaga mamili ng damit. buti na lang nakabili na ako yesterday with the help of my tita and ate. (after 10 years.. haha)

oh well, ivan's not home... he's in cagayan...??? haha.. thanks to sun ;p

ang tanga ko!!! mei surprise dapat ako sa kanya... ittext ko dapat mom niya just to remind about my gift.. but,, shoot!!! nasend ko sa kanya... after sending it,, tumawag ako sa kanya (not knowing na sa kanya ko pala nasend) biglang hirit siya... "mei nawrong send ata ha..." waaaahhhh!!!!! kakahiya! haha... tanga ko.. tuloy,,, change of plans bigla... err! anyway,, malamang nadown ako... weird,,, siya pa mismo nagcomfort sa kin... siya pa nagsabi na atleast wala siyang clue kung ano yun... haha... loko talaga yun!!! *gigil* ;p

what happened to rv??? hmph... i think sila na eh... duh!!! obvious naman noh... oh well,, i think happy naman siya eh... so,,, pinabibiyaan ko na lang siya... i saw their friendster... haha... 'babygurl'... wala lang.... ---tsong....get what i'm saying? ;p

hmm... grabe 'tong sipon ko.. ang tagal mawala... kakirita.... two weeks na ata 'to eh... errr!!!!

waaahhh!!! sana christmas na... gusto ko na isuot yung binili ko!!! haha... and.. hmmm... 1st christmas... hindi man kami,, pero hindi naman kami magkaaway... get? haha...

sad part about this christmas season::: i wasn't able to complete the simbang gabi... la lang...

hindi nga rin pala natuloy dinner namin ng mga bitches... =( sorry... uhm,, next time,, ayt??? miss you all!!!

bla bla bla

2004-12-04T18:10:00.000-08:00

just finished eating cheese cake... shoot!!! heaven!!! haha.. exagge.

oh well,, 16 and i won't be talking tonight... he's going out daw with his friends. grabe,, sobrang ingay ko kaninang CAT. haha... full of kwento.. non stop!!! i don't know.. i'm just happy. so happy!!! ...kahit 05 tomorrow,,, happy pa rin. sana i won't cry na... tired na eyes ko eh...

"1 missed call"... i think that's him. pero not sure so i texted "who's this? why'd you call?"... it's him... but si beejay daw yun. hayy,, i'm a bit affected... bakit ganun.. pag sobrang happy ako,, chaka siya nagpaparamdam. ah,, i guess.. para balance. ;p nyak,, ano ba yun.. pampalubag loob.. (tama ba yun?? haha)

i'm glad to see my friends kanina.. i missed them a lot!!!

by the way i posted something sa bulletin ---
>>> today's 04... then tomorrow's 05... duh!!! haha wala lang... how i wish i had someone para gawan ko ng surprise... or little something. oh well,, he must be happy by now... single life... nakuha na niya lahat ng gusto niya.

"happy 5th day of the month!"happy??? hmmm... really now?!?!?

'shut up and learn!!!' haha joke lang. ;p

sige people stay happy. love you my bitches. =)

16 makes me happy now. 'til when? hmm.. don't know. oh well,, basta papakasaya lang ako. yah, NO COMMITMENT!!! ++END++

o,, there... la lang. wala talaga akong magawa!!! lintek na...!!! haha... boring!!!

siguro mamaya ulit... wala na akong malagay... walang kwenta!!! ;p

happy these days

2004-12-02T13:25:00.000-08:00

nov 29... phew,,, we went to liliw laguna... bought shoes... shoes... and shoes. haha. how i wish i had a lot of money that day... para naman nabili ko lahat ng shoes na gusto ko... oh,, step in,, slip ons,, whatever you want to call it. "use your money wisely" that's what my sister told me... kaya yan tuloy, hindi ko nabili yung very cute na pang baby na shoes.. parang crochet na shoes... basta.. believe me... VERY CUTE!!!

last nov 30,,, my favorite couple celebrated their 1st year anniv... very sweet... *kilig* hayy,,, i was laughing the whole time when my friend did her surprise (while doing her surprise,,, she hid at the back of the christmas tree and called me up to keep me updated of the scene) waahhh!!! i'm very happy for them. well,, akala nga namin hindi matutuloy yung surprise pero... syempre,,, kung gusto mei paraan, kung ayaw mei dahilan. haha. by the way, thanks to gaf,,, he helped my friend jill.

i was so senti that night and thought of someone... and my favorite couple. i'm really happy for them. well,, i cried again... why can't i have an almost perfect relationship... tears stopped... the phone rang and... shoot!!! rv called!!! haha... tagal na since we last talked. well,, we reminisced... you'll only hear laughters... tawang hindi pang sabog pero tawang masaya talaga... hirap i-explain basta... we're both very happy. i told my friends about it and good,, they are happy for me. pero kakatakot... i don't know kung ano mafifeel ko in the long run towards him... bad news: he has a girl. haha... we talked about it and had an understanding. just so you know,,, hindi ako maninira ng relationship. been there,, felt that... don't want others to experience the same thing. we're friends... nothing more. nothing less.

be happy for me people,, it's been a week... haha... basta yun na yun.

thanks to my bitches... daring dianne, cruella michaela, silly jilly, and ano nga ba kay karen?? haha sorry... paiba-iba kasi eh. love you my friends.

talking to myself

2004-11-20T17:50:00.000-08:00

wala akong makausap... i wanted to talk to my dad,, to my brother... pero kay daddy,, sermon lang maririnig ko. kay kuya,, puro patay and so so. si ate naman,, ewan ko... si mommy,, magsasabi kay daddy.

i kept on thinking and asking... "is it really over??" hmph.. parang dream lang... pero yah,,, everything's over.

ang bilis noh??? ganun lang pala kabilis magmahal ang isang tomas.

i shouldn't be acting like this... but i'm totally wasted. i feel like i'm on my own... even though i know my friends are really there for me now.

hindi ko pa rin matanggap eh.

wala naman kasing mali... nagfall out lang daw siya... why???

ewan ko,,, hindi ko siya maintindihan.

i want to cry out loud... but i can't.. walang magccomfort and my parents won't understand me.

hindi ko kaya sa ngayon yung nanyayari.. i'll get over this.. i know... but until when will i be like this?

someone out there??? help!!!!

just needed to let it out

2004-11-11T06:30:00.000-08:00

he changed his friendster again... hmph... yah, still checking on him. oh well, this time,, a totally different friendster. ang yabang na niya!!!!! feeling niya nasa pinaka taas na siya. babagsak din siya... hindi nice ang pinapakita niya... ok na sana siya... sinara pa niya. ... hindi ako kasama dun.. yung sarili lang niya talaga... errr!!!

i am mad

2004-11-09T01:10:00.000-08:00

Did I mess things up? Well, I told him everything that I feel. Stupid!!! Malamang nasasaktan pa rin ako. Nagpupumilit lang ako na maging ok pero,,, doi!!! Malamang hindi ako ok.

Siya??? Naguguluhan??? Pucha yan!!! Pano ka maguguluhan kung alam mo na sa sarili mo na hindi mo na mahal ang isang tao. Gaguhan pala ang gusto nito eh.

Errr!!! If I didn’t let myself fall for him,,, I wouldn’t be like this now. Shit!!! Bobo!!!

Balik na naman ako sa dati. Lintek!!! Waaahhhh!!!! Sana mas madali ngayon…

Nakakagago… nahuhut ako dito tapos siya nagpapakasaya?!?! Hmph… unfair… lemme go out and party!!! (sana payagan..haha.)

I saw his friendster.. wala na yung still… 0918***58**… parang ganun ata yun… well, I cried when I saw it… wapak!!! Sapul!!!! I’m teaching myself to hate him… pero katagalan pag hindi na ako aasa na maging kami, mawawala na rin yung hate na yun. Actually, not hate eh.. it’s more on galit because of the things na ginawa niya. Hmm… inerase ko siya sa friendster ko just so you know… feeler naman kasi… ewan ko ba!!! Hayy,,,

Thanks to my friends… still.. they are here for me.

QUESTION::: may magmamahal pa kaya sa kanya tulad ng pag love ko sa kanya??? I mean… hmm…. My bitches, get what I mean??? ;p

happy birthday RV Reyes!!!

bestfriend

2004-11-08T01:09:00.000-08:00

i love him... he loves me... pero hindi na kami. we both decided to stay as bestfriends. baka masaktan lang kami sa huli pag nagstay pa kami. i mean.. puro doubts ako ngayon... hindi naman niya kaya ipawala. kung kami sa huli, edi kami. kung hindi, atleast bestfriends kami.

he's one of my treasures that i don't want to lose

i am hurt and i feel lonely cause he's not mine... pero kung ito lang yung way para hindi ko siya masaktan or hindi mag develop sa amin yung hatred,, ok lang... tatanggapin ko... sasanayin ko.

sana lang if ever dumating na yung day ok na ako... tapos may dumating na someone... sana happy siya for me. and same with me. although i know at first mahuhurt ako pag sa akin ginawa yun... pero decision naming dalawa ito... we should be happy for each other and live our life.

you know what's weird with us...??? it's the thought na parang kami. hindi kami... no commitment.. pero parang kami pag tinignan mo. parang user?? tinanong ko na yun sa kanya... hindi naman daw. siguro parang ayaw lang namin ng pressure...

honestly,,, ayaw ko ng ganito. gusto ko kung pano kami before. pero nag change talaga siya... wala na talaga akong magagawa dun. he's trying but i think hindi pa niya kaya ngayon. i'll just wait for the day na siya na mismo yung gustong magbago... ibalik yung dati...

sabi nila kaya daw ako sobra masaktan kasi sobra din ako magmahal... hmph... pano ba dapat??? hindi ko alam eh...

oh well,, i love you tsong!!!!!

with party poopers

2004-10-17T14:24:00.000-07:00

i'm sleepy... halos wala akong tulog. we had fun last night... morning... whatever! drunk???!!! tss... people... with v's... errr. kakairita! party poopers!!! malamang hindi mo makausap ng matino.. nagwala pa.

hindi ako makaisip ng sasabihin ko... literal.. ANTOK ako!!!!

*God help me*

friendster

2004-10-12T21:13:00.000-07:00

Me::: i enjoyed my childhood life. i am the baby of my family for about 8 years.. well, still am... my family's baby girl.. haha. ;p very malambing but at the same time very maldita. i'd cry real LOUD for them to hear that i am hurting or when my ate, kuya and i had a fight. yes, i cry a lot.. until now. crying real loud is actually the opposite of me. i'd prefer listening than talking. but sometimes, i tend to be very loud. according to my friends you'll see me like a real lady specially when i fix myself but when you hear me laugh.. you'll know that it's still me---same old kat. i am a God fearing person but i do a lot of kalokohans... get? haha. labo.

Family::: my whole family used to clean the whole house even the garden on saturdays or sundays. we used bbq sticks to pick up the dried leaves, clean the garage and car... hose, soap, scrub, water!!! saturday night, rest time of my dad and mom so we have our family bonding until sunday. we play billiards and share stories. "daddy, kain tayo sa labas," we didn't mean OUTside the house but we did. =) the 3 of us are all grown ups now.. apa's left... our baby patot. hugging him or making lambing to him (even if he hinders me and kuya) will surely make our day complete

Friends::: i have few but i know they are all for real. i consider my friends as my boyfriend... hard to lose, hard to have misunderstandings with, and hard not to care for them.. i do care-a lot!

Love::: hmm... it's nice to love and be loved... care for someone and have someone care for you. hard to be committed but what's love without problems...? fall, stand up, move on, learn, grow. unconditional love is one of the greatest gifts that one could ever receive.

My sister::: she's my favorite... influences me with computer stuffs. but not so much... terminologies.. eiw! haha... she's the greatest.. pwera lang when we fight. errr!!! haha

My pare (tsong)::: understands me... also the great. bears with my mood swings and accepts me for who i am. very makulit... but that contributes a lot with my smiles that you see.

*** everything here is who i am... my family, friends, my sister, and my best bud ***

yesterday

2004-10-08T18:24:00.000-07:00

october 07 (yesterday)--->>> hmmm...yes, my past.

oh well,, nothing important happened. my guy and i didn't talk. until when will we be like this? i mean... it's really hard to contact him... hindi naman pwede na wala akong paki, right? but atleast he texted me twice. haha.. masaya na ako dun. ang babaw. pero ayaw ko na magalit.. well, hindi ko pa trip... haha.

tanya texted me and called me up after 6 years... yay,, get over it!!!

kilig

2004-10-06T21:15:00.000-07:00

he reminded me how he felt before towards me... nothing has changed. oh, it did... he loves me more than before...

before, he made me the graphing paper thing... because of my stupidity, i threw it. i did that to please jr (my ex). now, my guy made me a smaller version. i felt the tears in my eyes... *covers* i felt the pain and at the same time, he touched my heart... i remembered everything pare... ;p

i keep on telling him that i wanted us to have a date (feeler ba???)... i just miss the night during valentines day... that's a date. =) anyway, we had a date... not that expensive but it's the thought that counts, right?

walang makausap

2004-10-05T22:52:00.000-07:00

he surprised me... i think that was around 12am... i don't know... i've fallen asleep. he did the paper about "why guys aren't contented with one girl." i thought he forgot about that... hindi pala. uhm, i wasn't able to see him... we just talked (thanks to his tita's cel),,, knowing that he's just there outside my house. corny ba? sorry... sweet naman yun pag sayo ginawa yun. haha.

dismissal time. i was expecting to see him... i want some hug for the day... from him to be specific. again, i got disappointed. wala akong right na magalit or magtampo. he did his part - his best. so yun, wala akong magawa. nag blog na lang ako. he didn't call or text man lang. kasama ba yun? i mean,, hayy,, nevermind na nga lang. ayaw ko na lumala yung nafifeel ko ngayon. i miss him... monthsary... yun lang.......

monthsary din ni paolo and amrit... sweet... paolo gave her some chocolates...

karen, dianne, and i are planning to swim... sana matuloy... waaahhh!!!! swim! swim! swim!

anniv na ni micah and gaf tom... good for them.. i'm happy for them. sana lang hindi sila magaya samin ni jr. nagiging ok, tumagal ng more than a year... pero hindi rin kami sa huli. pero kung hindi sila sa huli... siguro not meant talaga sila... not good as a couple...

karen's trying to be ok... sana makaya niya.

** very cute song...

You're my Honeybunch, Sugarplum
Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake, Gumdrop
Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear

...happy monthsary...

october

2004-10-04T18:16:00.000-07:00

october na!!!! i should've updated this on the first but,,, i think i used the phone.

sheesh... i took my DLSU entrance test yesterday... will i pass??? i hope so... pray... please...
my guy went there to 'support' me... scary,, i was with my cousin and all of the people keeps on telling me (while with my cousin) that 'my boyfriend' is there and wanted to talk to me. whew... i don't know what's on her mind... will she tell that to them??? i hope not. did we talk? yup. for about 3-5 mins. haha... just for good luck.

by the way... lapit na mag seven... dapat 3 years... eh gago siya eh!!! haha

five na tom... monthsary... surprise? i won't do anything. hindi na nga niya ko sinusurprise eh... miss ko na na may surprise siya. kahit walang thing... punta lang siya sa school... kahit sandali lang.. surprise na yun. oh well, kung wala eh... bakit naman ako aasa... errrr!!!

anyway, happy monthsary!!! *hugs*

absent nga pala si jill today,,, sa takot sa math yesterday, nagkasakit.. haha joke lang. mag-isa si micah... kakaawa.. what's wrong ba kasi? siya naman yung umiiwas eh.. haayy.. sana maayos na namin kung ano man yun mali.

updates

2004-09-29T22:47:00.000-07:00

hmm.. it has been how many days since i last updated this thing... well,,, we got back together. we agreed about his sched and all that. hard,,, but i can handle it. good naman yung reasons niya eh... so why let it slip off, right?

past days,,, the quatro's were able to have an intimate talk. it's kind of nakakailang but we're friends,, so, why should i be. oh, micah gave me & karen a cookie (yesterday) and ensaymada (today). i liked the cookie.. she baked it... FYI. mejo hard pero very masarap.

to fight for my friend: so what kung may gusto ang someone sa someone?!?! hindi ka naman ginagalaw,,, so bakit ka lalayo or parang pinandidirihan mo siya?!?! errr!!!!

by the way, my guy... i saw him. ;p he brought me lunch. thanks to his mom. haha... *shy*

jeremy and i took the quantitative and abstract reasoning test. out of 80, he got 45 and i got 66. i think it is something that i should be proud of. it is not about what you learn in school but on how you think... logically... or something like that. i think i offended him... he kept on saying, math na lang tayo maglaban. sus... pagnakinig ako baka matabunan ko pa siya. haha,,, yabang. ;p oh well,, i'm just soooo tamad with math... i hate my teacher. she makes our math class hard for us. haha... bitter. :)

before i forget... scary yung fung shui... but at the same time,,, sweet. haha. he made it the sweetest movie ever!!

depress

2004-09-20T21:49:00.000-07:00

had our fire drill this morning... err!!!

been very quiet this day... depress??? i guess... i actually didn't eat... what's happening? shoot... ayaw ko na manyari yun before... waahh!!! pinahihirapan ba ako or what? ang labo naman... hindi pwede 'to... unfair. ako lang (na naman) ang nagiisip at yung iba, nagpapakasaya. i did my works at school... except in filipino,,, i slept again. when i got home, i did some of my works... tinamad na ako kaya i stopped. yay, don't do this to me... wrong... argh!!! basta,,, i'm trying my best not to be affected... dadating din yung time na i'll be totally fine... i swear!!!! hmph....

i tried to entertain myself... kahit nagmuka na akong gago... i tied my hair like a baliw girl and put on make up... as in makapal na make up... ewan ko...

sharing...

2004-09-19T16:24:00.000-07:00

la salle - ateneo game...wala lang. i dont want to watch wala naman kasi akong kinakampihan...

things has been messed up because of me. yah, everythings my fault. he just did the right thing. choose his studies. pathetic... pati ba naman yun... errr!!! oh well, ill just divert everything sa studies ko... sana nga magawa ko. well,, at least i still got my bes, right? hmm... mejo nakakailang pero, kaya yan. ok na rin siguro yun nanyari para mas makapag study ako.

hurt? yah, malamang. pero i understand. he keeps on telling me "sorry"... good to hear but no need. again, its my fault. i cant blame him. it is me who cant understand the set up.

haayy... hindi pa ako makapag isip ng mabuti ngayon. OA na ba ako? ewan.. pero basta ewan...

i dont want to talk to any of my friends about this. ang daming magiging tanong... hindi ko naman lahat masasagot... may magsasabi pa na sayang,, duh!!! masakit marinig yun! bahala na lang... i hope he is happy... eventually ill be...

popped out

2004-09-18T23:39:00.000-07:00

i just remembered,,, someone once said that he wont forget to say how much he loves the girl because she might forget it...

he forgot and so did the girl.

bored...

2004-09-18T22:52:00.000-07:00

i am bored... obviously, i'm not using the phone... yah, still waiting. hmph... cry? i wont. why? because i cant.the reason behind these all... dont ask... no use. nothings going to happen. i want to quit... can i??? shoot... argh!!! bad trip!!!!

wala lang

2004-09-17T03:44:00.000-07:00

yan na,, nakagawa na ako... wala lang.. para lang pag walang makausap or something.. ;p

kind of pink??? haha,, wala lang ulit... try things na ayaw ko para matutunan kong mahalin.